This week I started taking Lupron injections for the surrogacy. Lupron basically shuts down my own hormone production so that I don’t ovulate and then the fertility doctors can regulate when/where/how much the hormones come back. In a sense, Lupron puts you into menopause.
With the artificial shutting down of my hormone productions…I am STRESSED. I have a headache. I feel on edge. I am HOT. Or rather, I am having “power surges.” Yeah, that makes it better.
Not.
Then, I am a stress eater. Big time. When the kids are freaking me out or I am sad or angry, I eat.
So guess what I am doing right now?
Stressing and eating. Stressing and eating.
Oh, and I am overweight and can not afford to gain anything.
That stresses me out, too.
See where I am going with this?
I’m sitting outside while the kids are swimming. I am sweating like a whore in church and all I want is for the kids to sit down and be quiet. I have a headache. Don’t they understand this? Why don’t they understand? Oh, wait, they are children. And I’m doing this to create more children. See the irony? lol!
Really, I am making fun of myself. It will be okay. Only about 10 more months of crazy hormones, right? I can do this. As long as I don’t end up a 500 pound heifer when I’m done.
Oh, and who’s freaking idea was it to make the charms in my Lucky Charms so tiny? I feel ripped off.
Don’t scare me now Rhea
Just kidding. You’re doing great.
BTW, I have a blog award for you. http://simplybeingmommy.com/2009/07/30/its-award-time-baby/
You get to eat Lucky Charms? My kids eat them up before I get a chance to have a single bowl. LOL! I can’t relate to what your going through, but at least you know it won’t be forever.
Have I told you how much you ROCK for doing this for someone else.