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I Hate This Walk

With October being breast cancer awareness month, I want to try and bring you some more personal stories from others who have been working so hard to fight this dreadful disease.   This story was posted originally on the Susan G Komen 3 Day for the Cure walker forums.  It was written by Larry, who has walked in many walks and is scheduled to be a crew member in DC and Philadelphia and a walker in San Diego (Can’t wait to meet him!).  It’s a powerful message.  He gave us permission to share.

I hate this Walk. I’ve participated a couple of dozen times over the last ten years in a half-dozen cities, and I hate this Walk.

I hate training. I hate waking up early to walk and walk and walk, and maybe earn a few blisters in the process. I’d rather sleep late on weekends, and spend the day with my butt firmly attached to the couch, reading, napping or watching TV. I hate training.

I hate fundraising. I hate asking hardworking people to donate to fight this damn disease that affects us all, while people on Wall Street make $50 million a year to destroy jobs and our economy while padding their own overflowing bank accounts. It’d be nice if those $50 million paychecks went to a cure, and the Wall Street folks had to run a freakin’ bake sale to support themselves. I hate fundraising.

I hate rain. Walking in the rain sucks. Sleeping in a tent in the rain sucks more. And don’t get me started on mud. I hate rain.

I hate pink. Pink is for “My Little Pony”, Barbie cars and 4 year old girls. I don’t care what my wife says, no man looks good in pink. Just once, I want to participate in a walk whose official color is “flannel.” I hate pink.

I hate tents. Getting dressed in a tent requires more gymnastic ability than I can muster. Sleeping in a tent, curled up so my feet aren’t hanging out the door, is not fun. Can’t they make a tent that an average sized guy can fit into, without having to crawl in and out? And while I’m at it, for God’s sake, can they please figure out how to make them soundproof, so I don’t have to listen to people snoring? Ladies, I don’t care what you tell your husbands, but you snore too! I hate tents.

I hate Gatorade. I hate Powerade. I hate every damn “ade.” There is a special place in hell for whoever decided to put salt in fruit punch. If I wanted a salty drink, I’d order a margarita. I hate Gatorade.

But there is one thing I hate most of all. I hate Breast Cancer. I hate the look in my wife’s eyes when she has to go for her mammogram. I hate that my daughters had to learn about breast self-exams when they were still in their teens. I hate going to funerals, and having to listen to talk about how “she is in a better place.” Screw that. You think that’s any comfort?

I hate that a young woman has to decide whether or not to have a preventive mastectomy because her father had breast cancer, and they both carry the BRCA1 gene. I hate that Mother’s Day is yet another day when some kids have to go to the cemetery to visit their Mom. I hate watching parents bury their children, and I hate watching children bury their parents.

I hate this Walk. But I hate breast cancer even more. Fuck breast cancer. Sorry if the profanity offends you, but I can’t think of any other word that fully expresses how I feel. So fuck breast cancer. Can we please just find a cure already?

But until we find that cure, maybe we can compromise on pink flannel?

larry
2010 DC & Philly Crew
2010 San Diego Walker

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Should I Laugh or Cry?

I mentioned the excruciating pain that I have been having in my foot the other day.  Went to the doctor today.  More than likely, I have a stress fracture.

I tried calling my OB/GYN office two days in a row to find out about scheduling a biopsy for my “tooma” (It’s not a tooma).  They have yet to receive my radiology report from the breast ultrasound I had on Tuesday.

*sigh*

I’m feeling a little lost right now.

On one hand.  I really want to cry.  My foot hurts.  I want to walk in The 3 Day and I’m stuck sitting.  I want to lose weight but I’m stuck sitting.  I want to go shopping but I’m stuck sitting.  See where I’m going with that?  There is also the very real possibility that this stupid lump could be something serious…like cancer.  That would just suck eggs.

On the other hand, I keep making jokes.  I think Bob should be extra nice to me since I have a tooma.  I also think he should do the dishes since I have a broken foot.  I think everyone should be bending over backwards to be sweet to me.  Don’t you?  I do know how to milk it… Me and my friend Cheryl are joking all day long trying to think of a name for my tooma.

I think I just really hate waiting.

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15 Weeks Until the San Diego 3 Day Walk!

Last night I returned from family vacation at the North Rim of Grand Canyon National Park.  This morning I awoke to an email stating: Countdown:  15 Weeks.

Holy cow!  FIFTEEN WEEKS until I walk 60 miles for breast cancer!?  Crazy talk!

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6 Miles Down

Holy crap!  I walked 6 miles last week!!  I am SO proud of myself.

Now a lot of 3 Day veterans could probably snub their nose at my meager 6 miles, but for me it is a lot.  I mean, I’ve been growing a baby and sitting of my butt for 6 months…remember?

I steadily increased my mileage throughout the week.  I started at one, then 1.25, 1.5 and ended in a 2.5 mile walk on Friday.  And you know what?  It felt really good!  I actually can’t wait to go out again tonight and start this weeks training.

This week I had planned on ending with a 5 mile walk on Friday, but my family is going to go camping.  I’ll probably just be sure to get my walking in on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.  Anthony is graduating Kindergarten (EEK!) on Wednesday, so I’m going to have to get creative.  Either way.   I’m moving and having a great time!

Now to work on fund raising ideas…got any?