Well.  I did it.  I had been contemplating for weeks but on Friday I went and enrolled all the boys into the regular elementary school.

*sigh*

I never wanted any of my boys to go to this school.  It’s not got a good reputation.  But I also don’t want the boys in different school’s (what a nightmare!).  The school that I prefer is a public Montessori school which is fabulous…unless you have ADHD.  Classes with people doing different things at their own pace is like putting a kid in a room full of shiny objects.  So at the end of his Kindergarten year I decided to homeschool.

Homeschool went okay.  We had a hard time keeping on task (I wonder if I don’t have a touch of ADHD myself sometimes).  I couldn’t get organized, I couldn’t afford the monthly fee to the online school we liked.  So a lot of it was just very random and willy-nilly.  I happily called myself an “eclectic homeschooler” but really I just didn’t have a clue what I was doing.

Then it came time to enroll the twins in school.  They were finally going to be kindergarteners!  Where did the time go?

Bob and I talked and decided that I would continue to homeschool.  The public school system really scares the crap out of me.  It is very unsettling to send your kids off to school where you have to worry about guns and bully’s and such.  But I thought it would be best to have some help keeping me on track with their education.  So we enrolled in the public “home-study” program out of the Montessori campus.

It is a highly rated program where most of the school work is done at home, but you have the option to go into classes two days a week.  This gives the kids some fun time with friends, extra help in subjects and also adds in Science and Art away from home (so the mess is contained!).  I was very happy about this plan.

Until this week.

Being a stay-at-home-mom is a fabulous job.  But living in the great state of California is not cheap.  I started thinking that if I went ahead and put the kids in school then I could get a job.  With a second income (even if it’s only part time) our family would be so much better off.  I love my blog and I’ve tried to make an income off of it, but truth be told is that it’s not easy to make money here.

I hate telling my kid he can’t have something new because I don’t have money.

I hate my husband wearing the same pair of pants to work every day because we can’t afford another one.

I hate my dad buying me groceries.

I hate my husband being stressed out every single day trying to make ends meet.

My husband makes a decent wage on paper, but it is not enough in Southern California.  So, unfortunately, the kids will have to go to school and I will have to get a job.

At least the boys are excited to go.  Anthony’s little BFF next door will go to the same school and everyone is excited to go buy lunchboxes.  That makes the decision a little easier to accept.