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My Husband Loves Me

The other day I was crying about not being able to afford an elliptical machine that would support my fat ass. Well, my husband told me to take the extra money I needed from our tax return to buy a better, more expensive machine.  YAY!  He loves me!

I started researching on Amazon and different websites about the different models available that would suite my needs.  I still didn’t want to spend too much money.  I finally decided that the Schwinn 420 Elliptical Trainer was the one I wanted, but I still didn’t really want to spend $600 if I didn’t have to.

Enter Craigslist.

I *heart* Craigslist!

There happened to be a local gal selling a near new Schwinn 420 Elliptical for a much more affordable price ($450.00).  She bought it last year and used it only 3 times.  I scored!

My family went down and we picked it up.  It’s all set up adding a beautiful industrial look to my living room.  Hopefully with it staring at me all the time I will remember to use it.

The thing I didn’t know about elliptical’s before today?  They are hard core!  I didn’t think it looked so hard, but I could only go for 5 minutes before my lingering cold kicked in and I started hacking up a lung.  That 5 minutes also turned me into a sweaty hot mess…and not the good kind either.  I had no idea what I was getting myself into!

I’ve done two sets of 5 minutes today and I’m very proud of myself.  Tomorrow I’ll attempt to go 6 minutes and just start building from there.  I would love it if you had any tips for me.  Ideas to keep me on track and motivated.  Have you ever used an elliptical?  Do you love or hate it?  I’ve never had any type of exercise equipment but I’m very excited!

 

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I Want a Cupcake

I’m an emotional eater.  I get stressed, sad, angry or discouraged and I eat.  I’ve pretty much been on some sort of diet my entire adult life.  I do pretty good for a couple weeks and I might lose a few pounds.  Heck, I might lose a lot of pounds.  But then something will happen and it will all fall apart.  Something like I’ll have a fight with my husband, or my kids will be particularly big assholes, or I step on the scale and don’t see an improvement.

I’ll get sad or angry and because I don’t generally keep snacks in my house (for fear of eating them), I’ll bake.  I really enjoy baking!  I really enjoy eating my baked goods, too.

I know I should go in and eat a carrot, but when I’m mad I don’t want a stupid carrot.  I want an ooey gooey chocolate and caramel cookie.  Or ten.

Last year I decided to participate in the Susan G. Komen 3 Day for the Cure.  I had several reasons for wanting to walk, one of them being that I was bound to lose weight.  Right?  I mean, training for a 60 mile walk, one has to lose weight.  Right?  Right?

Well, guess what?  I broke my foot.  Do you know why I broke my foot?  Because I was a fat girl trying to exercise!

Stress fracture.  Too much walking, too soon, too fat.  Talk about cupcake inducing depression.

I did complete the 3 Day walk (in a cast).  I walked all but 10 miles on a very rainy day.  I trained and walked even with a broken foot.  Did I lose any weight?  Nope.  Not a single freaking pound.  And even though I am extremely proud of what I accomplished, I was still discouraged by my lack of weight loss.

*sigh*

The walk has passed.  I can’t wait to do it again this year!  I’m still waiting for this stress fracture to heal.  I’m still trying to watch my calories.  I’m still fat.

So, my doctor suggested that I find a way to exercise that is low/no impact.  This way I can get exercising without hurting my foot.  I have friends with elliptical machines and they love them, so I started shopping Craigslist.  There were several for around $150.  So my mom gave me cash for my birthday so I could buy one.  YAY mom!  But as I started really researching the machines I was finding the same problem over and over again.  These cheap elliptical machines wouldn’t support my weight.

Here I am.  Too fat to walk.  Too fat for an affordable elliptical machine (I can’t afford a $1000 machine!).  And I want a cupcake.

This, my friends, is why fat people stay fat.  You may think that we are weak or that we have no motivation.  Trust me, getting kicked off the roller coaster because you’re too big IS motivation!   People think that we get weight loss surgery because it is “easy.”  But that isn’t true either.  Fat people go shopping for weight loss equipment but can’t afford the heavyweight machines.  We try to start walking and make goals to even start running, but then our own feet can’t support our weight.  This is all very discouraging for me.

I want a cupcake.

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Let's Make Losing Weight Fun!

bfmm148-bathroom-scalesI’ve mentioned a few times on here how I need to lose some weight.  I’ve gotten some lovely comments on my weight loss posts.  It got me thinking. (scary!)

I’m going to start a new weight loss series on here.  I will have weekly posts and maybe some challenges.  I think I will even look for some fitness/weight loss aid product reviews/giveaways!  What I’m hoping is this.  By coming on my blog and telling the World how I’m doing, I will have some accountability.  Maybe even some support.  And best of all, maybe some others that will join with me so I don’t feel all alone.

What do you think?  Good idea? No?

Next Friday, look out for this to start.  For now, I want to have a catchy slogan.  What should we call our little weight loss group?  I am terribly uncreative.  So leave some comments with your suggestions.  Maybe I’ll come up with a prize for the one I choose. :)   I would also love some suggestions on activities.  Would you like to see some challenges?  I want this to be very supportive for all of us.  If I’m going to spend all day on my blog I might as well make it useful.

Maybe I’ll start shopping for treadmills.